November 27th

I feel like I've been welcomed to real experience. My emotions and mind must have given me the pretend version before. Now I am alive. This very moment. I don't feel anymore--I just become the experience. Right now I am making a transition into the next stage of my life. Its a moveable force. Before now, change seemed to happen without my knowledge. After, I'd find myself looking back at moments wondering how I made it through. But this time I am aware of each shift - all of the growth is palpable... Sometimes there is pain--excruciating and exquisite. Sometimes the laughter is warm and familiar. There are losses that leave us and empty and somehow full with questions. But the payoff is abundance.

There also exists a beautiful sense of belonging and understanding--no questioning, just being. Its a safe place that many of us strive toward always. I've found my place-right here in me. The pieces have always fit, adjusted and made space for all that I had become. The people here have always seen me for who I am. They have never questioned, only accepted, loved, and continued. It has always been me--I am the driving force and conversely, the cause for pause.

Now that I am awake for living, I can get out of the shadows. Out of my own way. My story is CONNECTIONS. Experiencing, Feeling, Being, Communicating, connecting the dots. I am blessed--bursting from abundance. I have been fortunate to have made countless connections-experiences with all types of people. Each one unique and just as transforming as the one before. I'm so thankful to have been engaged by all my senses, pulled in and swallowed up by each event, every person, all of the experience. That is my wealth, my riches have carried me through and keep me buoyant.  I'm in love with love and possibility. So here we are at the entrance to the next stage. I'm anxious, happily speculating and not fearful.

If my past is any indication and my intuition is any guide then the ride with be captivating, cultivating and much more than I can ever fathom. 

And as I pack up my memories I am intrigued by the spaces left unfilled... the story yet to be written. And in case you were wondering I'm already in love-because I know it's already there for me.

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